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Welcome to the world

It’s wild what a leap of faith can do. The places you will see, the people you will meet, the experiences you will have, all of a sudden become more than just a figment of your imagination. I have been traveling for over two months now and still feel that I need to be pinched. How did my dream world become my reality?

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I still have a lot of learning to do but I am overwhelmingly grateful for all that I have learned thus far. Thanks thanks thanks love love love

The countdown begins

The first thought that popped into my head when I woke up this morning was, “in one week I will be boarding a plane to California.”
Crazy.
I’m trying to keep my mind in the present moment and not let my thoughts run wild. As the day gets closer and and closer it’s becoming harder to do that. I’m trying my best to soak up every little bit that home has to offer. Spending lots of time with wonderful friends and family in the water and under the sun.
Yesterday my mom and I cleaned out my closet and gave a few huge bags of clothes away. I felt incredibly light and I like that feeling. Shortly after we did a pre pack with my backpack that’s about the size of me. It went well because afterward I could stand up and walk around with it on. (That’s accomplishment in my book.)
This trip will be an adventure, but a challenging one. I’m really excited to live by the motto ‘less is more’.
Over the next few months with just a couple possessions on my back I hope I will have endless time for more laughs, stories, human connection, self contemplation, and just simplistic living.

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One door closes

Today started around 7 with lots of spilling coffee on my way to school. When I showed up for my class at 10 I find out my professor is canceling our final scheduled 4 days from now, therefore making today our last class.This news was surreal, my last class for my associate in arts degree, ends early!?, someone please pinch me. I’m a big fan of hump day already and today is one of my best. I was a happy camper all day after leaving school knowing I wouldn’t have to spend my weekend studying. Thankful my brother could spend this special day with me. Thankful my brother is my friend. Today one chapter ends and two weeks from tomorrow a new one begins. So grateful for this life and for changes that are about to take place.

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Appreciate the light

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The only constant is change
And you never know what you’ll find

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“Nostalgia in reverse, the longing for yet another strange land, grew especially strong in spring.” -Vladimir Nabokov

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life

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It is in the smallest details that the flavor of life is savored

Yesterday afternoon while I was on my way to meet my dad for dinner at our favorite little sushi place, I pulled over into this big open field as the sun was setting. I am so incredibly grateful for wide open places like this and for the sun. I am convinced the sun tells you to do these things. Nothing better than being one with nature.

Today is wonderful

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When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive—to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love—then make that day count!
-Steve Maraboli

You will be whole again

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I miss telling my Grandmother that I love her and telling her how grateful I am to have her. I miss her laugh and her presence.
Grieving is an interesting and lengthy process, it really never ends. Someone told me once it comes like waves and it’s true. They said we are lucky that it’s like that because we don’t have to deal with it all at once. It’s nice to be able to look at the silver lining like that during such a difficult time.
I feel lost and just in a daze. I know I will never be the same person again but I am continuing to make my grandmother proud and I am doing my best to keep a smile on my face.
At the end of the day I am just so incredibly grateful.

Quote Of The Day

The Paradox

Life is like a camera,

FOCUS on what’s important,

CAPTURE the good times,

DEVELOP from the negatives,

and if things doesn’t work out.

TAKE ANOTHER SHOT.

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Cinderella story

“To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived – that is to have succeeded” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

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My sweet Granny,
You left this earth on a Sunday morning but you are never really gone. You lived such an abundant and beautiful life and a little bit of you will remain in each and everyone of the hearts you have touched. I couldn’t have written a better story for you Sally. You truly are Cinderella. You inspired me every single day Granny, to be the most optimistic person there is and to make the most out of every single situation life has to offer. You were so gracious and loving. I couldn’t in my wildest dreams, imagined having a grandma that even comes into comparison to you. The memories I have with you began at the start of my life. You have always been right by my side in my heart. You will continue to stay right by my side in my heart too. Our bond is too strong Granny and no distance is going to change that. But boy my love our relationship has taken a 180 degree turn over the years. When I was a little girl you would babysit me and I would have sleep overs at your house with you and poppop and I will never forget how much I looked forward to that. But as I got a little bit older and entered those pre-pre-teen years I picked up on sarcasm, maybe too much who knows. Every time I would try to joke with you I remember you saying, “Oh well no honey you can’t do that.” And I would respond, “I know Granny I am just kidding!” Man did those awkward moments just vanish into thin air. As we both aged and things changed we got so much closer than we already were. When I would pick you up on Sunday nights for dinner (because lets face it, we all didn’t want to see you behind the wheel, especially after seeing you in those motorized carts at Publix) our relationship blossomed. This is where the 180 degree turn happens. I will never forget all of our trips to the grocery store and how much I would keep a close eye on you as you navigated your way through the store on those electric scooters. Man Granny you kept me on my toes to say the least! You always had me smiling and best of all laughing, all the time. Now either your sarcasm broke out or mine rubbed off on you. My biggest task while grocery shopping was trying to make sure you didn’t bump into anyone or anything(because the secret is out, you are a troublemaker) ;). One day, in the freezer department I stood by and watched you inch closer and closer to a woman shopping until I had to say, “Granny stop!, Stop!, Stop!” Just to hear you turn back to me and say, “Oh you didn’t want me to hit her?” Oh Granny your personality is so delightful and so special and I could not be more grateful to have your genes. It is safe to say you have done more than touched my heart, you have made a permanent mark and there is a wonderful spacious place in there for you to stay forever. I will continue to make you proud Granny and will do my best to help you not worry about me. Even though as you would say, “It’s my pleasure to worry about you dahling.” You always had your glass half full and you made your optimism come true. I promise you I will carry that on for you. You raised such a wonderful family that you should be so incredibly proud of. Most importantly you raised one hell of a daughter, you really did. That amazing woman I am fortunate enough to call my mother. Because of you and because of her I am who I am today, simple as that. I can not express to you in words how incredibly thankful I am for all you have done during your time here on earth. You have touched my heart in numerous ways and so many others. I couldn’t be more grateful to call myself your granddaughter. You are my inspiration, you are my bright light in my life, you are my hero, you are my real life Cinderella, but now most importantly you are my guardian angel.
Rest in paradise my darling, I will be missing you everyday and I love you more than you can imagine. Xoxoxoxoxo
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